I am in such a knitting rut.  I haven’t hardley picked up needles since the Christmas knitting frenzy ended.  I mean, really, I pretty much burnt myself out on knitting since I started my Christmas knitting this year around October (the end, no less), and I usually start my planning, buying of yarn, and executing sometime around August.  Maybe I was feeling like, who would really want another knitted thing from me?  who would want another pair of slippers?  who would want another felted bag?  another fantastic hat? socks? mittens?  sweaters?  really?? who cares???  I don’t really even care if what I make people gets used.  I just like to make things and presents are a great excuse.  Well this year, I wasn’t going to give people knitted things.  Then, it came closer to Christmas and I came up with lots of ideas of things to knit people - drum stick cozy (who wants to play with cold drum sticks?? not me), ipod cozy, felted crowns, lacy hats, felted bags, etc… but I was so short on time.  I only finished part of what I wanted to get done, and I pretty much was sick of my fingers cramping every night, that by the time Christmas rolled around I was never going to pick up knitting needles again.  But then, I got yarn gift certificates for Christmas, and you can’t put those things to waste, so my idea for burning all my needles put itself on the back shelf and I decided I wouldn’t give up so easily.  Really, when have I ever been a quitter?

However, I still haven’t decided what I want to go buy with my gift certificates.  What kind of yarn?  Do I want to spend it all on one project and get really fantastic yarn and make a really fantastic sweater?  Or do I want to spend it on a bunch of little things.  Yarn for felted things, something to make for Jayden, maybe a tank top for me, or a shrug, or things like that.  You see, I am so not inspired. 

In the attempt to get inspired, I have gone through most of my patterns, rearranged all my scrap yarn to see if there was anything there that I could make something out of.  I made a really ugly washcloth just because the only 2 colors of cotton I had left was orange and turquoise, so ugly I don’t even care to weave in the ends.  I didn’t even have enough yarn to actually make it full size.  Well, I did have a little red cotton left, but do you really think red would of made this washcloth any better?  I think not…  I found some wool in blue and yellow and knitted up this little envelope purse that needs to be felted now.  But really, it’s going to be ugly too.  I think it’s going to be so ugly, I have no desire to even stick it in the washing machine and see what it felts into.  Now, who would want to go into a yarn store and buy yarn when obviously this little rut I’m in does nothing but make me pick out ugly yarn and make ugly things out of it???  Right before I started posting this, I cast on 45 stitches in a lovely green tweed with the idea of making this circular never-ending scarf.  And while I really like the yarn right now, when I’m finished, this could be the ugliest scarf to ever leave a pair of needles.  What to do, what to do….